Tuesday 29th April - Day 83

10,8 today... thats exactly 3.5 stone/ 49lbs gone!!!

I am over the moon, another target hit. 12 weeks and 3 1/2 stone gone for good.
I have so far hit all my weekly weight loss targets and i really dont know where my motivation has come from.

On any other diet i would've quit along time ago... Like 12 stone something. Cant really get to grips with the fact that i am now 10 stone something!!! Im hoping my head will catch up with my fast loss as i still feel like i look BIG...

I keep looking in the fridge/ cupboard for no reason whatsoever... I think it is getting nearer to the time when i should be going up the different levels of CD. I have'nt set a specific time for doing so but maybe when i get into the 9's or 9,11/ BMI 25 i will stop ss'ing and go to 810.
Althought i have to admit i love ss'ing, it gives me control yet freedom. If that makes sense!!!

I feel in control as i know i can only have my shakes, there are no choices to be made and with this comes freedom from the guilt which comes with my eating habits. So at the moment ss'ing is the best option for me.

Got the wedding on sat and ill be having a few vodkas and maybe a few buffet nibbles but def getting back to ss on the sunday. No excuses. Not long til i am in a swimsuit at Center Parcs (June 6th) and i want to have a healthy BMI (9,11) for this break.

It has become a yearly tradition to go to CP with the girls each year and last year i was nearly 13 stone and looked truly awful. But i had been doing weight watchers for a month or so and prob lost a stone and didnt feel that bad... Now i know i was BIG and will hopefully be feeling much much better this time round!

So day one of week 13 tomorrow and hopefully ill still be 10,8 or even better 10,7...