So day one of week 15 and after my 3 weeks of messing around i am back on sole source.
Well sole source + to be precise. This means i am allowed 200mls of skimmed milk to add to my early grey tea. Much better than black!
I am feeling a little nervous... can i really do ss again????
It is soooo much harder to start again once you stop. And i guess as i have less to lose there is slightly less motivation to stick to it 100% like i did back in Feb and Mar.
So the motivation may not be there still BUT the weight loss goals ARE as is the holiday to Turkey with other people.... There is no way i cannot be in the 9's for my holiday!!!!
If i stick to this now i will enjoy my holiday so much more. I must keep this holiday at the forefront of my mind.
16 days of ss'ing until i go to Center Parcs on June 6th. I know us girlies are all watching our weight and most of us have spent the beginning of this year dieting so maybe we will be more inclined to make better food choices.... I hope!
IF this does not happen, i know that any gain from the 4 days will most likely be a water gain so if i jump straight back onto ss on the Tuesday (10th June) then i have another 24 days to lose this water weight and more before we go to Turkey on July 4th... I so want to be 9,1 for this holiday as that makes 5 STONE exactly! yay...
I have 6.5 weeks to lose 1.5 stone. Is this possible with a 4 day break to CP???? watch this space.
Wednesday 21 May 2008
Tuesday 20 May 2008
Tuesday 20th May - Day 104
Ok so we start ss again tomorrow, decision made once and for all.
No weight loss on Atkins so obviously i am either eating too much or not drinking enough water. Because of this i am returning to the strict control of sole sourcing.
Also been v stressed as had dentist today, required diazepam and intra venous sedation to get some work done so diet has not been my priority for the past few days.
Not been particularly naughty but not been good either... Oh well dentist is done and dusted and i am feeling a lot less stressed and readt to embark on hitting my target of 9,11.
Been to see my cdc and collected my shakes and am ready to get going tomorrow, would've started today but had to eat before diazepam and iv sedation so decided there was too much going on to think about ss'ing today.
Am also going to drink 5l religiously as from tomorrow, this was the key to my huge losses from day 1 and as this water intake has decreased so have my losses.
So we have 2.5 weeks to go til center parcs and i really really really want to hit goal number 2 of 9,11. it will be sooooo tight but i will try to get as close as poss. ss is the only way id get near to this goal in such a short space of time hence the switch from atkins to ss.
atkins will always be there once im at goal so i can wait til then! wish me luck for tomorrow.
No weight loss on Atkins so obviously i am either eating too much or not drinking enough water. Because of this i am returning to the strict control of sole sourcing.
Also been v stressed as had dentist today, required diazepam and intra venous sedation to get some work done so diet has not been my priority for the past few days.
Not been particularly naughty but not been good either... Oh well dentist is done and dusted and i am feeling a lot less stressed and readt to embark on hitting my target of 9,11.
Been to see my cdc and collected my shakes and am ready to get going tomorrow, would've started today but had to eat before diazepam and iv sedation so decided there was too much going on to think about ss'ing today.
Am also going to drink 5l religiously as from tomorrow, this was the key to my huge losses from day 1 and as this water intake has decreased so have my losses.
So we have 2.5 weeks to go til center parcs and i really really really want to hit goal number 2 of 9,11. it will be sooooo tight but i will try to get as close as poss. ss is the only way id get near to this goal in such a short space of time hence the switch from atkins to ss.
atkins will always be there once im at goal so i can wait til then! wish me luck for tomorrow.
Friday 16 May 2008
Friday 16th May - Day 100
Day 100!!!!!!!!!!! would've loved to have reached 4 stone by day 100 but hey ho 3.5 is fine with me.
I have been toying with the idea of returning to SS. I have not lost any weight whilst doing low carb/ atkins except my gain from my binge last week.
I am still 10,7 which is good as i have'nt gained but as everyone knows i wanted to be 9,11 for center parcs which is 3 weeks today.
If i carry on with this plateau i def wont get anywhere near this, so maybe i should ss until 9,11 / BMI 25.
Eating is not all its cracked up to be... I am always thinking about food and dread jumping on scales in morning in case it shows a small gain (would never happen on ss...).
So Monday i am going to see my CDC to be weighed, only going once a month now as i will have my own stock soon. I am keen to go once a month to keep me on track for now. I will discuss my predicament with her and maybe get enough shakes to enable me to ss until i get my own stock.
ooohh what to do?????????????????????
I have been toying with the idea of returning to SS. I have not lost any weight whilst doing low carb/ atkins except my gain from my binge last week.
I am still 10,7 which is good as i have'nt gained but as everyone knows i wanted to be 9,11 for center parcs which is 3 weeks today.
If i carry on with this plateau i def wont get anywhere near this, so maybe i should ss until 9,11 / BMI 25.
Eating is not all its cracked up to be... I am always thinking about food and dread jumping on scales in morning in case it shows a small gain (would never happen on ss...).
So Monday i am going to see my CDC to be weighed, only going once a month now as i will have my own stock soon. I am keen to go once a month to keep me on track for now. I will discuss my predicament with her and maybe get enough shakes to enable me to ss until i get my own stock.
ooohh what to do?????????????????????
Wednesday 14 May 2008
Wednesday 14th May - Day 98
10,7 today, so a 2nd sts.
Oh well this is much better than a gain which would've happened if i had carried on with the ss'ing/ bingeing cycle.
I am happy and feel in control at the moment. This slow loss is fine and i guess it is my body adjusting to eating again after 12 weeks ss'ing. If i dont get a good loss next wednesday then i will have to re-think what i am eating and maybe tweak it a little, ie/ less salt, less veg, more water etc... Could also be constipation from the lack of fibre.
I am still showing positive for ketones so this is a relief. I will keep doing what i am doing for another week and see how it goes.
No giving up at the 1st hurdle... not this year!
Like i said earlier in my diary, this is my year for losing the weight and i will do it!
Have had 2 coffees with double cream in so far (10am) and am not ready to have any food.
I think i have eaten loads over the past few days (hence the plateau and feeling of fullness).
The novelty of eating 'what you like' soon wears off so this week i expect a decent loss as i will be eating less and making a conscious effort to guzzle my water to eliminate any water retention.
So heres to next wednesday's weigh in!!!! Aiming for 4lbs...
Oh well this is much better than a gain which would've happened if i had carried on with the ss'ing/ bingeing cycle.
I am happy and feel in control at the moment. This slow loss is fine and i guess it is my body adjusting to eating again after 12 weeks ss'ing. If i dont get a good loss next wednesday then i will have to re-think what i am eating and maybe tweak it a little, ie/ less salt, less veg, more water etc... Could also be constipation from the lack of fibre.
I am still showing positive for ketones so this is a relief. I will keep doing what i am doing for another week and see how it goes.
No giving up at the 1st hurdle... not this year!
Like i said earlier in my diary, this is my year for losing the weight and i will do it!
Have had 2 coffees with double cream in so far (10am) and am not ready to have any food.
I think i have eaten loads over the past few days (hence the plateau and feeling of fullness).
The novelty of eating 'what you like' soon wears off so this week i expect a decent loss as i will be eating less and making a conscious effort to guzzle my water to eliminate any water retention.
So heres to next wednesday's weigh in!!!! Aiming for 4lbs...
Tuesday 13th May - Day 97
Again no major loss to report...ggrrrr!
I will be happy with a sts this week at this rate.
Todays menu;
B - s/f jelly with cream
L - peppered mackerel, salad leaves, gherkins and mayo
T - 2 burgers w/ melted cheddar on top, 2 sausages, s/f jelly with cream
Snacks - Babybels, hot pepperami, peanuts, celery sticks with peanut butter
I have done my ketostix and it is showing a good colour, so i am not worried about the plateau.
Fingers crossed we get a loss soon!!!!!!!!!!
I will be happy with a sts this week at this rate.
Todays menu;
B - s/f jelly with cream
L - peppered mackerel, salad leaves, gherkins and mayo
T - 2 burgers w/ melted cheddar on top, 2 sausages, s/f jelly with cream
Snacks - Babybels, hot pepperami, peanuts, celery sticks with peanut butter
I have done my ketostix and it is showing a good colour, so i am not worried about the plateau.
Fingers crossed we get a loss soon!!!!!!!!!!
Monday 12th May - Day 96
Still no big loss, in fact still seeing a slight gain... This is prob due to sudden switch from ss to eating lots of food (allbeit atkins friendly) and salt causing water retention.
I am not concerned, i am in ketosis so it can only be constipation or water retention causing a plateau so i will plod on...
Todays menu included;
babybels, sugar free jelly with double cream, coffee with double cream, peanuts, ham and philly roll ups, doner meat with f/f mayo.
I spent the day painting so no real meals except kebab meat in the evening, just snacking all day really! Thats why i love this way of eating as i am a real grazer. I prefer to nibble all day than have 3 set meals.
The s/f jelly is perfect for a hot day, an ideal snack as well as handy for breakfast when you cant be bothered to cook some eggs!
So 3.5 weeks til i go to center parcs and with this plateau i am fearing the worst with regards to getting to 9,11 for my weekend away... we shall see!
I am not concerned, i am in ketosis so it can only be constipation or water retention causing a plateau so i will plod on...
Todays menu included;
babybels, sugar free jelly with double cream, coffee with double cream, peanuts, ham and philly roll ups, doner meat with f/f mayo.
I spent the day painting so no real meals except kebab meat in the evening, just snacking all day really! Thats why i love this way of eating as i am a real grazer. I prefer to nibble all day than have 3 set meals.
The s/f jelly is perfect for a hot day, an ideal snack as well as handy for breakfast when you cant be bothered to cook some eggs!
So 3.5 weeks til i go to center parcs and with this plateau i am fearing the worst with regards to getting to 9,11 for my weekend away... we shall see!
Sunday 11th May - Day 95
So sun is shining and its picnic season!
I shall be thoroughly enjoying myself today as we are going out with my family for a picnic and i can eat!
No major weight loss to speak of yet. I am hoping its water retention still...
So today i have eaten;
B - ham and philly roll ups
L - picnic inc. salami, cheese, ham, cocktail sausages, cucumber, salad leaves, mayo
T - garlic and herb chicken thighs with garlic mayo and small salad
With the increase in my salt intake i am guessing i will retain some water for a few days. Prob a bit of a shock to my body to suddenly be eating food and lots of it.
I will expect not to lose lots in my first week because i was in ketosis when i began so no whopping great big glycogen loss for me :(
I shall be thoroughly enjoying myself today as we are going out with my family for a picnic and i can eat!
No major weight loss to speak of yet. I am hoping its water retention still...
So today i have eaten;
B - ham and philly roll ups
L - picnic inc. salami, cheese, ham, cocktail sausages, cucumber, salad leaves, mayo
T - garlic and herb chicken thighs with garlic mayo and small salad
With the increase in my salt intake i am guessing i will retain some water for a few days. Prob a bit of a shock to my body to suddenly be eating food and lots of it.
I will expect not to lose lots in my first week because i was in ketosis when i began so no whopping great big glycogen loss for me :(
Saturday 10 May 2008
Saturday 10th May - Day 94
well its been a topsy turvy few days since my binge at cdc training on wednesday last week... and i am happy to announce i am now on Atkins! i have amended my blog title to take this into consideration as im not on CD now...
Cambridge Diet 08 (wks 1-12, 14,2-10,7) and Atkins Diet 08 (wk 13+, 10,7-?)
i knew when i got to my first goal of 10,7 in 12 weeks then i would bee itching to start eating again. ideally i would've loved to have the discipline to do 810 and then work upwards from there. but i dont have 'any' discipline, even after abstaining for 12 weeks!!!
i am slowly yet surely losing my gain from last wednesday. i only cheated on one day yet managed to gain 6lbs... yikes, must've been the large pizza from the takeaway. oops!
so i began Atkins on Thursday as it is clear i cannot do sole source 100% at the moment.
this is what ive had to eat;
Thursday
B - CD shake
L - Boiled eggs
T - Grilled lamb kofte, sauerkraut (pickled cabbage)
Snacks - Babybels
Friday
B - Boiled eggs
L - Ham rolled up with Philadelphia on
T - Chicken breast, cauliflower
Snacks - Babybels
Saturday
B - 2 poached eggs, 2 slices bacon, mushrooms
L - Ham, cheese, Sugar free jelly & cream
T - Chicken thighs (garlic and herb), asparagus w/ parmesan cheese
So am hoping to get rid of my gain and maybe lose a little more for next wednesday weigh in, 10,6 would be fabulous! We shall see how this Atkins diet goes...
i am also drinking lots of water still, 3l a day.
i am torn between feeling like a failure and also feeling liberated... I cannot forget that i did lose 50lbs on CD. It is a shame i couldnt continue to 9,11 BMI 25 but hey thats life!
My partner is happy for me as i am no longer weighing up the 2 diets and feeling bad for not being able to stick with one or the other.
i think Atkins is the way forward for me now, i feel good about what i have achieved (a little gutted i didnt stick to SS for longer) and am confident that i can get to goal.
i am still aiming for 9,11 for Center Parcs 6th June!!! Fingers crossed...
Cambridge Diet 08 (wks 1-12, 14,2-10,7) and Atkins Diet 08 (wk 13+, 10,7-?)
i knew when i got to my first goal of 10,7 in 12 weeks then i would bee itching to start eating again. ideally i would've loved to have the discipline to do 810 and then work upwards from there. but i dont have 'any' discipline, even after abstaining for 12 weeks!!!
i am slowly yet surely losing my gain from last wednesday. i only cheated on one day yet managed to gain 6lbs... yikes, must've been the large pizza from the takeaway. oops!
so i began Atkins on Thursday as it is clear i cannot do sole source 100% at the moment.
this is what ive had to eat;
Thursday
B - CD shake
L - Boiled eggs
T - Grilled lamb kofte, sauerkraut (pickled cabbage)
Snacks - Babybels
Friday
B - Boiled eggs
L - Ham rolled up with Philadelphia on
T - Chicken breast, cauliflower
Snacks - Babybels
Saturday
B - 2 poached eggs, 2 slices bacon, mushrooms
L - Ham, cheese, Sugar free jelly & cream
T - Chicken thighs (garlic and herb), asparagus w/ parmesan cheese
So am hoping to get rid of my gain and maybe lose a little more for next wednesday weigh in, 10,6 would be fabulous! We shall see how this Atkins diet goes...
i am also drinking lots of water still, 3l a day.
i am torn between feeling like a failure and also feeling liberated... I cannot forget that i did lose 50lbs on CD. It is a shame i couldnt continue to 9,11 BMI 25 but hey thats life!
My partner is happy for me as i am no longer weighing up the 2 diets and feeling bad for not being able to stick with one or the other.
i think Atkins is the way forward for me now, i feel good about what i have achieved (a little gutted i didnt stick to SS for longer) and am confident that i can get to goal.
i am still aiming for 9,11 for Center Parcs 6th June!!! Fingers crossed...
Wednesday 7 May 2008
Wednesday 7th May - Day 91
So am very annoyed to report a sts... 10,7 still.
My week of chopping and changing was so not worth it, anyone considering dabbling in atkins or other diets DO NOT DO IT!
I am happy to have had Sat evening off for wedding but i dont think it was a good idea to mess about and combine diets. Oh well, hindsight and all that...
So I now have 4 weeks friday to get to 9,11 for Center Parcs, this gives me a bmi of 25 and would be a wonderful achievement!!!!
Had my CDC training day today and it was fab. I learnt loads of new stuff about CD, sole source and the maintenance plans.
Cant wait to get started and see my own clients... Would love others to experience the same losses!
So here is to another week of SOLE SOURCE, no dabbling i promise...
My week of chopping and changing was so not worth it, anyone considering dabbling in atkins or other diets DO NOT DO IT!
I am happy to have had Sat evening off for wedding but i dont think it was a good idea to mess about and combine diets. Oh well, hindsight and all that...
So I now have 4 weeks friday to get to 9,11 for Center Parcs, this gives me a bmi of 25 and would be a wonderful achievement!!!!
Had my CDC training day today and it was fab. I learnt loads of new stuff about CD, sole source and the maintenance plans.
Cant wait to get started and see my own clients... Would love others to experience the same losses!
So here is to another week of SOLE SOURCE, no dabbling i promise...
Tuesday 6 May 2008
Tuesday 6th May - Day 90
Day 90??? woo woo but where has the time gone????
would've LOVED to have reached 4 stone for 100 days but this does not seem likely after my 'blip' this weekend. today i weighed 10,9 so still showing a gain/ water retention from my days off.
who would've thought 1.5 days of normal eating/ drinking would affect my weight so much. was 10,7 last friday and am still 10,9 even after ss'ing since sunday... was it worth it??? mmm dont think it was. oh well live and learn!
still 3.5 stone in 12 weeks was good going and i wont dwell on this temporary gain. this would be my downfall normally along with an 'oh f*** it' attitude.
i am determined to get to my goal so i must plod on.
just having my 2nd shake of the day, you guessed it a 'hot choc mint'!!!
got my training day tomorrow so am hoping my 'ketosis' is going to work for me as i dont think it will be appropriate for me to take my blender to prepare my shakes and i dont have any tetras.
fingers crossed i can last the day on my brekky shake and water...
i will be heading off early tomorrow for my CDC training so will not weigh in as usual on wednesdays, i will wait til thursday instead. this might help me shake of this gain!!! please....
would've LOVED to have reached 4 stone for 100 days but this does not seem likely after my 'blip' this weekend. today i weighed 10,9 so still showing a gain/ water retention from my days off.
who would've thought 1.5 days of normal eating/ drinking would affect my weight so much. was 10,7 last friday and am still 10,9 even after ss'ing since sunday... was it worth it??? mmm dont think it was. oh well live and learn!
still 3.5 stone in 12 weeks was good going and i wont dwell on this temporary gain. this would be my downfall normally along with an 'oh f*** it' attitude.
i am determined to get to my goal so i must plod on.
just having my 2nd shake of the day, you guessed it a 'hot choc mint'!!!
got my training day tomorrow so am hoping my 'ketosis' is going to work for me as i dont think it will be appropriate for me to take my blender to prepare my shakes and i dont have any tetras.
fingers crossed i can last the day on my brekky shake and water...
i will be heading off early tomorrow for my CDC training so will not weigh in as usual on wednesdays, i will wait til thursday instead. this might help me shake of this gain!!! please....
Sunday 4 May 2008
Sunday 4th May - Day 88
Oh my god, just re-read Friday's entry and realised how fast my frame of mind can change with regards to food...
My plans on friday were morning shake, chick for lunch and nandos chick for tea... Well come 5pm i was soooo not into Nandos. In fact i was so uninterested in eating anything.
I made a decision to have friday evening off and then saturday for the wedding and then return to sole source on Sunday (today).
So i did!
Friday was fine with shakes for breakfast and chicken for lunch, but the night involved a few naughty delights! we went to mac d's before the cinema, i had a sweet chilli chicken sandwich (on brown bread - how angelic lol...), had fries and a diet coke... then had a huge bag of pic n mix. i lurve pic n mix!!!!!!
Saturday's breakfast was 2 slices of brown toast with marmite, lunch was a cheese and onion sandwich, then tea was wedding buffet and 4 glasses of white wine. so well and truly off-wagon!
Today is a different matter, didnt bother weighing myself as i normally do religiously... I have had my shakes and am back on track 100%.
makes me feel better to put it all down in black and white, it doesnt actually look that bad does it??? so onwards and downwards... 9,1 here i come!
My plans on friday were morning shake, chick for lunch and nandos chick for tea... Well come 5pm i was soooo not into Nandos. In fact i was so uninterested in eating anything.
I made a decision to have friday evening off and then saturday for the wedding and then return to sole source on Sunday (today).
So i did!
Friday was fine with shakes for breakfast and chicken for lunch, but the night involved a few naughty delights! we went to mac d's before the cinema, i had a sweet chilli chicken sandwich (on brown bread - how angelic lol...), had fries and a diet coke... then had a huge bag of pic n mix. i lurve pic n mix!!!!!!
Saturday's breakfast was 2 slices of brown toast with marmite, lunch was a cheese and onion sandwich, then tea was wedding buffet and 4 glasses of white wine. so well and truly off-wagon!
Today is a different matter, didnt bother weighing myself as i normally do religiously... I have had my shakes and am back on track 100%.
makes me feel better to put it all down in black and white, it doesnt actually look that bad does it??? so onwards and downwards... 9,1 here i come!
Friday 2 May 2008
Friday 2nd May - Day 86
Oops forgot to 'blog' yesterday, nowt to report though.
i havent had a whopping loss to notify you of!
i am still 10,7. i am not surprised, not disappointed and chuffed that i havent gained despite 'eating' again.
this is what ive had since wed;
day 1
b - choc mint shake
l - atkins choc brownie bar
t- chicken thighs pieces in garlic/paprika (m&s)
snacks - 2 boiled eggs
day 2
b - choc mint shake
l - 2 chicken breasts w/ ceasar dressing
t - chicken breast cooked in chinese spices
day 3
b - choc mint shake
l - chicken breast cooked in chinese spices
t - (will be) nandos chicken
so as you can see ive not gone mad, i am sticking to chicken and things that will keep me in ketosis. i am doing this on a weeks trial, if the loss is minimal next wednesday then ill switch back to ss until i get to bmi 25, 9 stone 11.
i have got my training day on wednesday this week to become a CDC. i cannot wait to help others. i am always on minimins and LOVE giving peeps advice and making their journey as successful as mine. i have struggled with my weight for 2/3 yrs now and this diet has been a breakthrough for me.
i just hope i can get to the end and making the switch to semi cd/ semi atkins is not going to slow me down. i must be strong and go back to ss if i dont get a good loss next week. i dont want to start a downward spiral of bad loss = demotivation = start eating sh!t... = gain all weight back.
i will def be ss'ing if this switch to eating chicken etc fails to give me good results!!!!
off to cinema later and will be going to Nandos first. Not been there for yonks, maybe a year ago. i shall be ordering either a whole chicken to share with other half or 1/2 chicken for ME! yum...
wedding tomorrow, so will have my morning shake, maybe miss lunch as i will need some extra carb allowance in case i want to have some buffet! a few voddies might may be hungry lol...
peeps on minimins keep saying how they are reading my blog and i really appreciate others taking the time to read about my journey. if it helps 1 person to get started and stay motivated then it has been worthwhile. i will prob carry on blogging when i start maintenance, it will be a constant reminder to admit what my actual weight is... no more denial about gains!
so HI to all minis reading this, good luck with your losses this week xxx
p.s ive changed my ticker at the top of my blog as i have reached 10,7 which was my first target, i now need to get to 9,1 for a total of 5 stone loss in total.
i havent had a whopping loss to notify you of!
i am still 10,7. i am not surprised, not disappointed and chuffed that i havent gained despite 'eating' again.
this is what ive had since wed;
day 1
b - choc mint shake
l - atkins choc brownie bar
t- chicken thighs pieces in garlic/paprika (m&s)
snacks - 2 boiled eggs
day 2
b - choc mint shake
l - 2 chicken breasts w/ ceasar dressing
t - chicken breast cooked in chinese spices
day 3
b - choc mint shake
l - chicken breast cooked in chinese spices
t - (will be) nandos chicken
so as you can see ive not gone mad, i am sticking to chicken and things that will keep me in ketosis. i am doing this on a weeks trial, if the loss is minimal next wednesday then ill switch back to ss until i get to bmi 25, 9 stone 11.
i have got my training day on wednesday this week to become a CDC. i cannot wait to help others. i am always on minimins and LOVE giving peeps advice and making their journey as successful as mine. i have struggled with my weight for 2/3 yrs now and this diet has been a breakthrough for me.
i just hope i can get to the end and making the switch to semi cd/ semi atkins is not going to slow me down. i must be strong and go back to ss if i dont get a good loss next week. i dont want to start a downward spiral of bad loss = demotivation = start eating sh!t... = gain all weight back.
i will def be ss'ing if this switch to eating chicken etc fails to give me good results!!!!
off to cinema later and will be going to Nandos first. Not been there for yonks, maybe a year ago. i shall be ordering either a whole chicken to share with other half or 1/2 chicken for ME! yum...
wedding tomorrow, so will have my morning shake, maybe miss lunch as i will need some extra carb allowance in case i want to have some buffet! a few voddies might may be hungry lol...
peeps on minimins keep saying how they are reading my blog and i really appreciate others taking the time to read about my journey. if it helps 1 person to get started and stay motivated then it has been worthwhile. i will prob carry on blogging when i start maintenance, it will be a constant reminder to admit what my actual weight is... no more denial about gains!
so HI to all minis reading this, good luck with your losses this week xxx
p.s ive changed my ticker at the top of my blog as i have reached 10,7 which was my first target, i now need to get to 9,1 for a total of 5 stone loss in total.
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