Tuesday 25th March - Day 48

Ok so no entries for a few days... and nothing to report either!

But today the scales have moved and I am 11,9.
The laxative on Sunday seems to have done the trick... These plateaus are so annoying!!!!

This weekend (Easter) has been bloody awful :-(
I have had such a hungry week and all this talk of chocolate has been torture for me...
Went to mums on Sunday, she cooked an amazing roast dinner which i managed to avoid and sat with a black coffee in front of the tv... I was so down in the dumps i could've cried!

I am determined to continue with this plan until my first goal of 10,7. It is sooooo hard at the mo though. I just want to eat! I have considered going up to the 790 plan BUT i am not sure it will work for me. Not the weight loss aspect but the control side of it.
It would also be lovely to switch onto the Atkins diet now BUT again, i am not sure i can control myself yet. I may give in to a piece of chocolate and before i know it i will be eating all sorts of junk...

ABSTINENCE is the way forward for me... for now anyway!

We were on the way to the cinema last night when i said to my boyf about my thoughts of moving up to 790 plan and explained that i could have a meal at night time (allbeit only protein and some veg). And he swiftly reminded me of this;

' you always do so well then mess it up...'

Now this may sound harsh to anyone reading but he meant it in the nicest possible way and it was his way of saying 'dont give up yet '.

So today is a new beginning, no more dreaming of food, no more smelling food, no more wingeing and wining about not being able to eat... etc.
No one is forcing me to do this diet so i need to start a new positive me for the final 16lbs...

I would love to be at goal for 30th April, this will make it 50lbs in 12 weeks!!! Fingers crossed...